19 June 2003

...something she said to me last...
sour at appearences; not really old but still you try and make believe
cafe was empty and she spoke of the last chance for me
the other world is telling me what i suspected along
best get me outta here; before i do something wrong...

...i must go to heaven
im already stuck in hell
and when id end up there
i'll ring the fucking bell...

distractions make it seem more normal
lying still in bed to half past 3
in the luxury of a 3-star rating
just the best for you baby
nothing but the best...
...for you

18 June 2003

reset olafactory-settings?!?
been trying to feel. but i ain't got no legs. missed opportunities. acquired new taste. its better up here. where the air's not so thick. so tragic isn't it. the words that she said. baby doll queen. hopped on benny's. mixed quotes, and personalities. kinda feeling ill. dont know where this is going. something's gotta give. not good at bending. wait for the weekend. the fun it's all there. 24 bottles pending. earned every one. sent out a letter. got no reply. stand on a rooftop, arms to the sky. got a slight tingle in the corner of my mind. like an itch or a burning. still don't know why. better much better. arms all around. look ma', he's funny. but he isn't a clown. lost points and descriptions. curious jorge va a la playa. drown in a bathtub. cinco de mayo. danny-boy found the stairway. slammed the door shut. now its locked when i find it. i just cant get out.


Childhood: The period of human life intermediate between the idiocy of infancy
and the folly of youth -- two removes from the sin of manhood and three from the
remorse of age.
~Ambrose Bierce~
Disease Of the Month
phlebitis

Inflammation of the wall of a vein. Causes include nearby infection, trauma, surgery, and childbirth. The area over the vein is painful, swollen, red, and hot. A tender, cordlike mass may be felt under the skin. It usually occurs in surface veins in the lower leg and can be treated with pain relievers and bed rest, with mild exercise after inflammation subsides. Phlebitis can last for years; in such cases, irritation of the vein's inner lining leads to blood-clot formation, a condition known as thrombophlebitis (see thrombosis). In deeper veins, this requires anticoagulants to prevent embolisms.