[?!?]
what can i say that i havent said
1000 times before
you do what you want or feel or
whatever
i can applaud you at that
its all well and good
unless
it directly contradicts what
atleast i thought
was understood.

so what am i supposed to think
or do?
its always been not up to me
but YOU!


...


fine!
fuck it! i give in!
im sick of feeling all this pain!
im going back to being numb again.
im just not going to give a fuck!
about
anyone
or anything.
like i used to be...
or i tried atleast...
but thats good enough for me.