[soon]
thoughts come too quick
sometimes
spouting out in fits
& ryhmes
bombarding my frontal lobe
with
mad designs
& thoughts
in overload
i cannot help these things
i know
too quick they come
&
so quick
they go

[her]
the fear
heavy mountain
the entire
weight of the world
here
in
the garden
my thoughts
return
to her

[orange soda]
taunt me, woman, with your
beauty
& words
speak of glorious unions &
true
blinding light
sasshay into picture
tease in a pose
i love how you tease me...
i love that you know

[ventilation]
breathe
a whole new life into
me
sterilized
so fresh & so
clean
a manifest
destiny
help me out of
purgatory
where my soul has wept
&
where it
bleeds
show me a whole new life
with traces of that vanquished
feeling
happy things
...
just remember
to
breathe

[coma]
learn to dream but
not
of dying
feel the weight when
its
all around
me
want to live if
its
worth
the suffering
just a day of
understanding

[dagnamit]
where do we go from here?
there'll be no fingers pointed
no vicious sneer
ugly, ugly words you wouldnt
want
your mother to hear
but where, o where my dear
do we go from here?
you've stated your reservations
and ive given up my
intentions
both still from fear
neither side wanting to get
hurt
but willing
to
maybe
try
a little?
:)
need some guiding light by which
to stear
figure out where we go
from here

[a fool with words]
nevermind the puns &
prose
that way with words
that
heavens knows
poor puntuation
&
the dream
aside
i'll have my way
with words
tonight

[void ix]
as if at once the joke was played
& the geisha girls go a go-go-rocking
down the calvacade
in electric vinyl tape
autumn leaves
a shallow grave
pour me out
into space

[0.k]
i wont alter my
perception
to the lonely void
for just one second
but i will align
my heart
& mind
to find some peaceful,
stabalized,
even grade
to
walk upon
&
feel
o.k.

("o.k" comes from the middle ages
when the plague was ransacking
the population; '0.k' meant was
painted on doors meaning Zero Killed)

[empty]
sitting here
my bottle
empty
feeling numb
&
a little
silly
crack a
smile
because
its ok
watch the
sun
rise
in a
different
way

[cool hand luke]
booby-trap in the blood red sky
tonight
ephervesent, diamond-like
its baby steps to
get
it
right
i guess i'll sleep alone
tonight

[ataraxia ii]
blush at the meaning
which
calms the mortal flame
experience in
numbers;
the ratio
that bleeds

[hey zeus]
daydream pisser, go on
just kiss her
who's the fool to know
a bitter sweet
memory
hanging in the back of your
mouth
rant
& raving
but its death im craving
& i want it
right
now

all of these feelings
will pass
ALL of these feelings
will
pass

[usury]
ancient beings belong together
nothing more
& the sciences of a lifetime
seeks
the inbetween
now & then
in the modest hopes
of
all that is
& the hopes of
what could be
AND that which she
WOULD be
such as
that
upon reflection
i am
better equipped
to speak these words
that
i reflect
after 14 years of so much
shit
and not much sense
to tell me what i cant
want to hear
im glad to see you're still
so
godamned pretty
you say im a
sexy man
shat upon in the younger years
so
whos to know
took such a small part
in
the infinite
but used as you
learn
to wield the power
that you never wanted
to know

[indeed]
strain to read the street signs
we're still
1000 miles behind
daylight-dreaming
on the asphalt
screaming
"you can do it!"
in foreign tongues
bow
to the craving
save only those worth
saving
theres no need to whisper
no need
to shout
no need
indeed

[counting sheep]
how do i sleep
when im losing my mind
each night
all of these horrible
dreams
keep me afraid of
closing
my eyes
there are terrible things
that wait
for me
on the other side
of
the light

lobotomy101

[sic et non du]
the sunshine is key
a safe harbour in the distance
safety is everything; everything is
safety
moonlight, calm waters
beauty turned
disaster
so much in this instant
too much
but i'll take it
mirror imagery
making funny faces at everything
calm in the waters
all said & done
sunshine and happiness and i
stick out my tongue

[blue]
drawn into a dream
slowly
like in the way, way back
discovery of strength &
the ever-present will that comes
with it
a shared smile that could mean
so much
the light of eyes to
illuminate
the soul
drown inside this dream of
lonliness
& come out clean

[red]
the sun breathes color
and i do too
shades of cold-wind, winter blues
thousands of dead leaves litter
the ground
the morning train & im up
too late
the sun 'll breathe color
into my face